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What happens when we feel compelled to sin? Why do we have a human nature that is sinful? If within someone there are two voices saying two different things and one says take action and the other says not to how are we to know which to listen to? Everyone knows that killing is bad, lying is wrong, drunkenness is sinful but what about things that aren't so black and white? I was thinking about some ways to tell what is the right thing to do in a situation and thought about the popular saying "What would Jesus do?" or W.W.J.D. for short. Well I am not Jesus so this brings up a few questions such as Jesus was friends with prostitutes so should I do the same? or in a relationship how should someone treat their other half?. Jesus gave us no example for that. I am curious if Jesus would if he were in my position continue to play music or would he preach? Would he sacrifice what he wants for his family or for someone he loves? Some things are so unclear. Its almost like I can only see six inches in front of my nose and even some of those things are blurry. Questions about purpose and life's mission and how to change the world are serious ones that are scary when the steps are blurry. I guess all this leads back to Faith. Without faith none of these questions have answers and the little light that allowed me to see six inches in front of me goes out. Sometimes Faith feels like walking across the grand canyon: You are stepping on air but because you have your eyes closed and you believe so much that you won't fall, you simply don't. My advice to all: Don't look down.

Almost lost . . . again

Has it been one or two years? I don't even remember now but I do know that I have almost lost this thing at least 100 times. 5 of those times were in states other than Oregon too. I almost lost it today as well. I decided to bring a soccer ball for lunch time today. I took everything out of my pockets and set it down with my keyring. I made sure my keyring got set down on top so I wouldn't lose it. Being my rediculous self I forgot I put it oon top and when i picked up my stuff it slid right off into the endless grass feilds. I surveyed the ground 10 feet in every direction just in case it flew off a little more than sliding. I couldnt find it and it was time for class. I went to class and continued writing my screenplay often thinking back to where else the ring could be. School got out at 2:05 and I ran back over to the field and looked for about 30 seconds and there it was shining in the sun calling out my name (metaphorically speaking). Montana , Idaho, and Washington could not claim it's powers and neither will my school. The raw earth just can't handle the magnitude of power it holds. One ring to rule them all!!!

Video Installation Art?

I am working on a video piece that is slightly experimental. The whole question that the piece revolves around is "Are you plugged in?" The type of video that it is does not just exist on a DVD that you can pop in your player and watch whenever you want. The video that I am creating is meant to only be viewed in a very specific place. I am creating that space in a room at my school to be set up for our all school gallery called "Art is my Voice". The room will be very dark being that the only light sources are strobe lights with long intervals and single television set playing my video looped (looped meaning when it reaches the end it seamlessly goes back to the beginning and plays). The room will also be littered with hundreds of feet of video cables almost emulating a jungle like feel. The walls will be decorated with things aiding the point of the video. The video is from the perspective of a young person. The questions that it brings up should range pretty wide. I am interested to see reactions to this one . . . If you would like to come see it let me know and I will get you information on when the gallery showing will be. I should be putting the video up on my you tube site (linked in the upper right hand corner of this page as "My videos") after the showing but be assured that watching the video alone will not have the same effects.

Cosmic Patriotism

So many are probably curious about what cosmic patriotism is. Let me see if I can shed some light. The premise (idea) is that pessimism is blinding because you don't allow yourself to see the good. In the very same way optimism is equally blinding because you don't allow yourself to see the bad. Instead of trying to look at things with a positive or negative perspective you should look at it from a patriotic perspective. It is suggested that being a patriot of a country is blinding because you are investing in an entity that has distinct enemies and you are only self interested. This all leads to the conclusion that you should be a patriot of the cosmos (universe) therfore you would be interested in all mankind and mother nature. If you were proud to be from earth instead of America we might get a long easier. Christians especially are encouraged to not to be blind or self interested but interested in everything that God loves (which is everything). [whether or not God loves the devil is arguable but in my opinion is unnecesary to know for sure] If I was a patriot I would go out of my way for a stranger as if they were my friend. That thing that people call your coinscience would become one with instinct and [re]action. Can you live a day with everyones benefit in your heart? Is it possible?

~THINK~FEEL~ACT~

Words, Words, Words.

I am now checking at least three blogs and commenting on them daily so I guess it should not be that big of a challenge to write a little bit myself each day. I won't promise essays or epic poetry or even that I will address anyone directly in this blog. My URL pretty much explains the reason why I figure I should actually write something. Any questions? Please let me know if I am being too kryptic. This is for you to understand, not to make me seem more mysterious.